I'm Awake While You're Still Asleep

'And Then I'm Awake'

Before I start, where should I start? the night before the day or the early morning Dilemma? anyways to make the short story long, i have decided to start in the night before the day :)

The night before the day is of course still dark, and the stars seems a shy at me, they didn't show-up.That's not a problem. On the other hand, i have decided to sleep and it's already 9 in the evening. I fell asleep and the next thing i know, i woke up and check my phone, what time is it? it's still 2:12 early morning, That's amazing! right? because i need to convince myself to sleep again and not to oversleep to miss fajr (pre sunrise) prayer. My consciousness does not cooperate with my eyes.

 I keep on closing my eyes and imagine that i will be sleeping, but my imagination seems ineffective during this time. Then i keep on moving on my very hard bed(i prefer sleeping on a flat, hard floor with a cover of course) making myself comfortable in a weird sleeping position (don't mind imagining what position it is, it can cause severe headache), shhhh... and I have been doing it for 2 hours  and that's super amazing, i guess you need to inform Guinness World Book of Records. 

Since i can't sleep again and the time for fajr prayer is 4:35am and the time on my phone is 4:14am, I'' just wait for the prayer time to come. upon waiting,I asked myself, pondering, reflecting things before the call of prayer in fajr, and this are the questions that i have come-up

• What if I was born with a financially incapable family? will I ever feel the comfort that i have now? the food, the dress and all kind of comfort that i feel?
• What if I was born in  a very materialistic country that could easily persuade a women into exploitation? will I ever understand the reality of this temporary world? will I ever know that a value of a woman is more than a jewel or a precious stone?
• What if i was born in a very prestige, famous and a very rich family? will I ever be able to understand the feeling of being hungry? being discriminated? being oppressed? How can i help the oppressed if that's the case? cause most probably i'll be the oppressor.
•  What if I was born a none Muslim? will I be able to search for the truth? the truth that protects me in ignorance and illusion in many form? will I be happy with those false happiness that I'll be tasting?

This questions made me say "ALHAMDULILLAH!" it means All Praise is due to ALLAH.  

Alhamdulillah because i know that being a Muslim is already a very big blessing, that you are being guided by your creator on the right path. The right path that is not being corrupted nor edited and not a man-made laws. Man are made with flaws therefore i can never ever in my whole life, trust those man-made laws. 

Let me continue on my timeline-type story, after a few reflection i heard the Adhan(call for prayer) and i rise up from my hard bed and go to the comfort room to have a wudhu(ablution),

 i start from saying "Bismillah"(in the name of Allah) then i start washing my both hands, 

then gargle to wash my mouth, 

next is the nose; in cleaning the nose you need to inhale a little amount of water(not internally) then blow.

 after the nose I cup a water on my palm then wash my entire face.

 next is the right arm, then the left.

 then i wet my hand and wipe it on my upper forehead backwards and include my both ears.

 and lastly i washed my both feet, of course right foot first before the left.

 After finishing my ablution, i recited "ash-hadu ala ilaha ilallah wa ash-hadu ana mohammad rasulullah" to validate my ablution:) and then I started praying for fajr;the coolness of my soul.

Upon finishing my prayer, I fixed my room before my beloved mother recognize that i slept again in the floor, yes! i have a soft bed. and time check, it's still early in the morning. I had a little scan on my notes, have a stretching because i'll be having a long day ahead. THANK YOU FOR READING!

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